mt

What did I do before tumblr?

I can’t remember. I seriously can’t. I guess I read fanfictions before that… But before THAT, then? I don’t know anymore… I’m not part of any communities besides tumblr, I can’t REMEMBER the communities I used to be part of before tumblr. I barely talk to people online anymore. I’ve lost all social life online, and I didn’t even see when it happened! I have NOTHING to do on here anymore, and it’s driving me insane. I’ve become so dependant on physical social contact lately, and when I’m alone I almost go nuts. Like, the kind where you want to scream, throw stuff around and then sit down in a dark corner and cry with frustration, and you don’t even know why. I miss my life before this. I miss my online friends. I miss my easy life, when I could talk to people all hours I was awake. When I had a social network over the entire world. When I was a part of forum. When more than three people would talk to me online every day. And despite having a social life IRL now, (and don’t get me wrong, I love all my friends to bits and pieces), I’m STILL failing school. Worse than before, even. What the hell am I doing with my life…?

posted 2 years ago